Wrecked.

If I said that coming back home has been easy I'd be lying. If I said I have been feeling totally wrecked, devastated, and undone I would be telling the truth. 

I miss Africa. I miss it more than I can find the words to explain. I never thought it was possible to fall so in love with a place and people in just 3 short weeks. I never thought it was possible until now.

I remember the searing pain that engulfed my heart the second I started saying my goodbyes. The hot tears that filled my tightly closed eyes as I embraced the babies that I had the privilege to care for and love with every fiber of my being while I was there. You can't just be with these babies everyday and then leave them without feeling totally helpless and a great sense of abandonment. There is no going back to who you were before you went, but there is a great fulfillment that comes when you choose a life of service and sacrifice; when you choose to step out into the darkness and find that fulfillment in hurting and unlikely places. When you walk inside the lives of broken people and you sit down in the red dirt with them, you too become broken. Your feet become tired and dirty and your heart becomes heavy. It's hard to accept that you will never be able to help all the millions of people living in ruins, but living a life in service helps us accept our purpose. It's important to live a life that is uncomfortable and not self-seeking. To live a life that is overflowing with love, and that is full of moments that break us apart, while in the meantime living a life that helps us understand why we're here. Even if we can't help millions, we can help one. We can help one that is just as worthy and precious in the eyes of our Savior.


I challenge you to live a wrecked life. One that is radically shaken up and rung out, but is also transformed by confronting the worlds most devastating realities. Because where there is life, there is hope. Always.

Sincerely, 
Kenna

Watch a video of my journey here:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4B-uNnfs1-w